i made any kind of entry here was almost a year ago.
i wish i could say that i have grown.
i wish i could say that i am a better person.
a woman in bloom with confident teeth
and lips that don't stay so chapped.
but i'm still a mouth breather and
i am still stubborn and i am still
sitting in this green and blue room.
i wish i could say that i am happier.
i think i am happy somewhere but it
is not here, oh that much i can tell you.
the city is too loud, though, dirty and
eyes still cut me too deep, my anxiety
is still throttling me around the throat.
i am still seeing him sometimes.
i told him, i am not happy anymore.
i have seen other boys,